While in Montana for the writing retreat I loved witnessing
the dawn of each new day. It was a sacred time, a peaceful time, one of renewal and hope.
At home I have little time to notice the birth of a day. I am always too busy preparing for it. There are breakfasts to be made, lunches to
be packed, clothes to be ironed and buses to catch.
With all of these obligations and tasks at hand there is little, well,
really no time to watch the earth awaken and revive from her slumber.
My Montana mornings
were different. I would pour my cup of
coffee and head to the lakeside dock with the intention of greeting the new day. My cold hands would be warmed as I wrapped them around
the ceramic mug full of steaming hot aromatic liquid. As I sat upon the cool damp dock I watched as the
mist traveling upward from the mug mixed with the rising dew from the
lake. Hot versus cold, dark versus
light, night versus day, Opposing
forces melding into one, they too were unified. And as the sun ascends higher
the day begins.
On these silent and
peaceful mornings I gazed upon the trees in the distance and I noticed that they
were replicated on the surface of the smooth glass like lake. The only thing separating the mirror images was
the cloudy mist that was rising. Ah, a life parallel. When we reflect on our lives; where we have
been what we have experienced and where we have come from there is always a
cloudy part, the unclear section. These are the times in our lives where we
experience uncertainty, disarray and confusion. In retrospect we question our
life’s mist. What if we made a different
choice or moved in a different direction?
How would our lives be different from the here and now? We can only imagine what could have been. All
we know is what is. This is our reality.
Maybe it is my age
that bubbled all of these feelings to the surface. When you are younger you just live…you are,
and you breathe in each moment. Now with each year that is punched in your birthday
dance card, you count, you look back. Thoughts like, “How did I get here so
fast?” And “Wasn’t it just yesterday?” become common place. The face staring back at you in the morning mirror
has more wisdom and wrinkles than you care to remember. In your mind you are still twenty five full
of ambition, drive and enthusiasm. Well,
I still do have that drive and enthusiasm; it just moves at a different pace. Ambition has taken on a whole new look. Her
story has changed.
This week I was
reminded of my past steps. My college roommate
who was a life line sent by the Universe for me, lost her Grandmother. Nana was ninety seven when she departed this
earth She was what you would call, a really, really good egg! Not only did she
make a wicked chicken salad but her chocolate chip cookies were to die
for. It never mattered how many pieces the
postal service delivered them in. They always
tasted wonderful! Their sweetness brightened our taste buds and souls each and
every time. You know why? It was because they were crafted with love,
pure and intentional love. Nana’s smile was wide as her hugs. Her eyes always lively,
her laugh was engaging and real, just like her.
Nana was truly an angel that walked on this earth among us.
And so all
of this got me thinking, reflecting upon where I have come from and where I am going.
The simple difference between life and death is a breath; a simple single
breath. It is something that we all take for granted. Breath is always expected
to be there for us, but in the next moment, without warning it may cease. Lack
of breathing may signify life versus death but how deeply we breath in each moment is the difference between experiencing life fully or
not at all. Truly breathing in and living
fully within each moment is the difference between being hollow versus whole.
Our fuel is our breath. It is our currency.
Remembering to inhale deeply, fully and live each moment for what it purely
is and has to offer is amazing. It is within this space we discover our place and
purpose. Breathe in each and every
experience. Let it gently whisper to
your soul, travel the path and share the lesson. There are times that we are both students and
teachers. Some days we are learning and other days we are teaching. Each step
we take is choreographed. Within the reflections are stories, experiences and lessons. Some are joyous others are not. Embrace each of your reflections for what is was and brought to your life, or at the very least enjoy the view!
These are the words I needed to read today. Claire is one of my lifelines sent from the Universe. I am fortunate to have her in my life, even though time and distance separate us.
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing these inspirational words. <3
Stacy Lyn, I appreciate you sharing your thoughts. My sister Claire has always gently held my heart. From the day I was born she has been my champion and cheerleader! (As you can see from her sharing this post!) I am so happy that my words resonated with you! Keep in touch with my sister, she will always be there for you!
DeleteKathy... you have a calming yet very important message that we all need to follow...even though we are all getting older, we need to remember to live each day to the fullest and receive what it has to offer and use what you receive to your fullest potential....life is truly a prescious gift so enjoy it each and every day and let yourself be open to experience the adventures!
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Kathy - thanks for sharing. In the midsst of hub and bub, we forget to "breathe". Your writing brings balance back to the lives of those that forget to "breathe"...truly needed to read that in a bustling morning! Thanks again...and keep on writing :-)
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